Finally! The first semester is over! No more term papers, professors from hell, assignments and lessons that I will never ever get. Now, I can finally unwind from the stress that is school. There are however, times when I still can’t believe it’s over. It feels so surreal thinking that I don’t have to worry about my academics for the next three weeks. I guess the only thing I need to think about now are my grades. Oddly, this is the first time I’ve felt this kind of relaxation and detachment from school. I actually feel like a virgin. Touched for the very first time.
Speaking of virgin experiences, lately I’m being plagued by a strong sense of being alone. I feel that the people I know and love are slowly drifting away and moving on to other things. With that, I have made the realization that at the end of the day, you only have yourself. Friends are great support systems, but in the vast reality of the universe, we are all alone. I learned that you can’t count on people all the time because they have their own lives to lead. They have their own friends, boyfriends, families and problems.
Last night, I was out with my friends at Molokai to celebrate the end of the semester. I still believe that we are alone but like I said, friends are great support systems. We may have our own lives to lead, but parts of our lives are intertwined to make a meaningful whole. I may be alone but that doesn’t mean I’m lonely.
It’s finally sem. break! No more term papers, professors from hell, assignments and lessons that I will never ever get! I have three weeks to relax and I intend to maximize every minute of it. On a grander perspective, I realized that we are all alone, but I also realized that there is no point harboring these kinds of feelings. We are alone, but my friends and I, we’re alone together.